My dream has probably saved my life. The grief and sorrow has been so significant that there were weeks that I sat on the sofa and could not think of a single thing that was important enough to make me get moving. There were times I did all my normal things but my heart was empty. But God placed that desire deep inside me. He knew that Vyntage Barn would be more than a dream. He has allowed my dream to become a place where my siblings and I can be together and laugh and work. Our children have become involved in such a big way and the dream just gets bigger. We have big plans for the spring sale even as we prepare for our Christmas sale. There is an excitement in the air for each of us.
My shed has giving me a place to be, a place that sparkles and glitters and makes everything seem so much better. A place where I can dare to dream even bigger. Vyntage barn is my escape from all the worries and sadness, a place my parents would have loved.
My hubby and I spend more time together looking for stuff for the store. My brother stops over with his items that he is making and gives me ideas for the sale. My sister is finishing her last year of teaching and will become even more involved as this school year ends.
My Mom would have loved to have seen how our idea of a little shop has brought us all together is such a grand way. She would have loved that her passing has brought our cousins out in full force to support us, to share with us, to love on us!
My dream is not ending with the completion of the 31 day series. My dream is just starting. I will continue to share what I am doing and how things are going. But I hope that through my journey you can see that God is there in our darkest moments. He has things planned that only He can make happen. He wants more for us than our biggest dreams. God has held on to me when I couldn't move. He has supported me when I didn't think I could do it. He as loved me when I was beyond lonely. I call on His name to comfort my soul when the grief overtakes me.
I still have days of tears and sadness. My heart is clearly a work in progress but my dreams are growing and ideas are flowing and I am trying to laugh again. My life has been forever changed by the loss of my parents but my life goes on until I am called home to be with them again.
God has given me a reason to go on. He placed a dream in my heart that would not go away. I am blessed to be living my dream right here, right now...in my shed, with my family. I am blessed beyond measure.