Monday, April 18, 2011

Just trying to Survive

On Monday March 28th, our world changed with a picture on an MRI.  If you have followed my blog for very long then you understand that it has always been about projects I am working on or fun little  ideas and of course decorating our home. But our lives have changed and so my blog posts are now changing too. I had no intention of this blog being serious and actually I had every intention of blogging about things that are fun.
 My children are well on their way to becoming adults. My oldest is graduation from college, my middle daughter is a freshman in college and our youngest is a senior in high school. I have been thinking about opening a small business and I have been looking forward to sharing all my ideas with each of you.
 But as we all know, our plans are not always the plans the Lord has and he has placed a hurdle in front of us. A hurdle I don't know how to fight. But  this blog has always been about what was happening in my daily life so I will continue to share even  when it is unpleasant because I believe we can learn from each other and we can share each others burdens thus the MRI.
  On Monday, March 28th, 2011 my wonderful Mother went to hear the results of an MRI she had taken because she was having back pain. We were looking for a bulging disc or maybe she needed a hip replacement but instead the Doctor told her to go home to her family. My parents were in Florida spending the winter. She had helped my Father recuperate from a hip replacement surgery in November so we thought maybe she had hurt herself maybe she needed surgery. But that was not the news, I wish that had been the news.
  In an instant my world changed. I was standing the the middle of the gift shop that I work in when I got a call from my father saying that my Mother had a spot on her spine,  cancer. He said the doctor kept saying how sorry he was....I was still listening, I was  standing still, I thought I was going to vomit. I was in shock. I was scared, I was overwhelming sad and I was worried. My parents were alone. Our family was in Ohio. I spent the next hour silent. I spent the next hour in shock.
  This is just the beginning of our story. Can I say I have cried enough tears to fill a bucket. Can I tell you I have never felt so helpless and alone and lonely and scared? I have been surrounded by family but I feel like I am so isolated that if I really let go I won't be able to control myself. I am praying for healing and restoration and bracing myself for what is to come.
 I am a very blessed person and I don't want to leave you with discouragement but if you have a broken heart then you know where I am right now. There have been more developments in our journey...we had to get our parents home to see what we are dealing with. That part of our journey is next. We covet your prayers.
 

17 comments:

Janet - underthewillow said...

I'm sorry you are hurting Dianntha...I hope your Mom is able to get the treatments that are neccessary.

Janet

natalyK said...

I am sorry to hear that your family has been thrown this curve ball. My
thoughts are with you and your family as you navigate this huge challenge.

Susannah said...

I understand your pain. I am sorry you and your family are going through this. God be with you all.

Susannah

Deborah said...

I am so sorry for the news that your family has received. My thoughts and prayer are with you and your family.

cynthia lee designs said...

I'm so sorry that your family is going through this. I'm praying for your mom and you and your whole family.

~Cindy~

Deb @ Crows on the Cupola said...

I am so sad to hear your news. Sending our prayers to your mom and your family.
Hugs,
Deb

Kathy@ Gone North said...

OH, I am so sorry.
I HATE cancer.... will be praying for your Mom, for complete healing & for you & family as you help her thru this.
And to let you know.. my sweet husband has battled the ugly C twice... has had 2 major surgeries to remove it, but is now cancer free...
" And we do not live as those without Hope"
Take care

Heidi said...

...and you have them of course! I have been in your place many years ago. It was my father and my parents were living in Florida at the time with me being here overseas. The doctor told him he had a month to live.

I know that being far from them makes you feel helpless but you are in their hearts as they are in yours.

Hugs from Holland ~
Heidi

Farmhouse prims said...

I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. I will be praying for you all. Hugs, Lecia

Carol said...

You and your family must be hurting so very much right now. I'm so, so sad to hear the news about your dear mother...And I know how hard it is dealing with ill parents who are far from home. We've had to bring mine back north, too, after a winter of decline and misery... Sending you a gentle hug and my thoughts and prayers.

Christine said...

This is heart rending news Dianntha and I can only let you know that you are all in my prayers.
'My Grace is sufficient for you' - comfort yourself constantly in the Word of God and let Him support you in His everlasting arms.
Hugs
Christine

Kymberly Foster Seabolt said...

My prayers are with you. May you have the strength and the courage and some hope and good news too.

Sally said...

I am so very sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Linda said...

Oh, Dianntha...........my heart is breaking for your sorrow.
I am sure that your Mom and Dad are both so relieved to back with family,
this will make the road to recovery so much easier. Thoughts and prayers are with you.
Linda

Karen/My Colonial Home said...

I'm praying for you and your whole family.
I know from the sound of your messages that you have so much Faith...this will get you through.
I'm so sorry. Saying many prayers.
Karen

Deppen homestead 1862 said...

I am saddened with your words~ I am so sorry your Mother & all of you are going through this~My many thoughts and prayers go out to you~ I pray, the angels will guide you all through this~ Praying for a miracle & healing~
Teresa

Robin said...

Wow....I have been away from the blogging world and was trying to catch up today. After reading your latest post, I navigated back to read what has been going on. I am so so sorry. I have tears running down my face reading of your phone call in the gift shop. Yes, you do feel like you want to throw up. I will be sending prayers of hope and strength your way. Somehow we do manage to get through these times. We women as truly Steel Magnolias.