Hello Dear Friends,
I am feeling contrary today. I am feeling tired and,ummmm, not sure what the word is, maybe reflective. Today our youngest left for a road trip with her dear friend and well, I am happy for her. I am happy that we have taught her to be independent and a free spirit. I am sad that she is spreading her wings and flying further away. Let's face it, we raise them to be responsible and then we are sad when it is time for the to use the tools that they have to just live life.
So many changes are upon me. This has been my last year of home schooling my children. They have each graduated now and that season of our lives is over. I was ready for it to be over, ready to move on but still sad and well reflecting back on all the things I will miss about having our children so near!
Then of course there have been such big changes with my Mother since March.
She always spent hours working in her gardens and helping each of us.
She helped because it was her delight to do so. She was always the first one to volunteer to help and willing to do any job there was. My Mother is not a complainer, she still does not complain. Now, would other people say that about me? No, I don't think they would. She is so sick and now needs someone to take care of her. She often doesn't feel well but she doesn't complain and she is always so grateful. Again, my life has changed because of her in so many ways. I am watching her struggle and fight for good days...I see things that are slipping away. I know that none of our lives will be the same. A new season, a very different season.
I have known that there was a new season coming and I have been worried about it. Worried that I make good choices about what I am to do. I do not have the answers yet but I am waiting and listening to see what God has planned for me. Sometimes the waiting is the difficult part...but really it is the listening...to that still small whisper...from the one who already knows all answers.
I am feeling contrary today. I am feeling tired and,ummmm, not sure what the word is, maybe reflective. Today our youngest left for a road trip with her dear friend and well, I am happy for her. I am happy that we have taught her to be independent and a free spirit. I am sad that she is spreading her wings and flying further away. Let's face it, we raise them to be responsible and then we are sad when it is time for the to use the tools that they have to just live life.
So many changes are upon me. This has been my last year of home schooling my children. They have each graduated now and that season of our lives is over. I was ready for it to be over, ready to move on but still sad and well reflecting back on all the things I will miss about having our children so near!
Then of course there have been such big changes with my Mother since March.
She always spent hours working in her gardens and helping each of us.
She helped because it was her delight to do so. She was always the first one to volunteer to help and willing to do any job there was. My Mother is not a complainer, she still does not complain. Now, would other people say that about me? No, I don't think they would. She is so sick and now needs someone to take care of her. She often doesn't feel well but she doesn't complain and she is always so grateful. Again, my life has changed because of her in so many ways. I am watching her struggle and fight for good days...I see things that are slipping away. I know that none of our lives will be the same. A new season, a very different season.
I have known that there was a new season coming and I have been worried about it. Worried that I make good choices about what I am to do. I do not have the answers yet but I am waiting and listening to see what God has planned for me. Sometimes the waiting is the difficult part...but really it is the listening...to that still small whisper...from the one who already knows all answers.